Working from home seems to be the best solution for mothers who want to take care of their children. I thought that having a job at home means I can be available 24/7 to my child. I never expected that I will have guilty feelings even if I'm devoting all my time earning a living and taking care of my baby.
Before, my baby can play independently for an hour. She doesn't mind me doing something else. This is why I consider working again. When I started with my online job, things have changed. Now, she suddenly craves for my attention.
When I sit in front of my computer, she makes her way in between me and the monitor. She bangs the keyboard. She taps my hand when I try to answer my emails. She takes my hand and try to pull me away from my work desk. Then she will flash her most endearing , bedimpled smile.
This is why I feel so much guilt. It makes me wonder if I am giving her enough of my time, love and attention. Is it too selfish to pursue a personal ambition for financial gain? Is it all worth it?
But in the end I just try to console myself that all the things I do is also for her.
3 comments:
you've hit it on the nail sis. guilt is not only for those who leave the kids physically to go to work but also for those who leave mentally ;)
I can relate sis, my daughter is 2 years and 8 months and yes I feel guilty too because there was a time that she already slept 230 in the morning because I wasn't beside her...I was calling clients in the usa that time...
I found that excellent time management is the key! Concentrate on the things that really matters.
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